A few total strangers have written to ask me when my next book is coming out. That should make me feel awesome. It doesn't. The answer is, I have no fucking idea. Why?
Because I still haven't put my packet together so I haven't even approached another publisher.

WTF, me? Seriously...

Am I afraid of failure? I shouldn't be. I've been teh FAILz at plenty of stuff in my life. I quit the volleyball team in junior high, quit jazz/tap soon after that. I left technical theatre when my paychecks started bouncing. I have NO plans to quit writing. Oppositely, I'm trying to freelance full-time. I send out plenty of resumes, writing samples. I'm writing and subbing short stories when appropriate anthologies open up. So why can't I put this packet together and send it out?

Am I afraid that the book sucks? No. It doesn't suck, though there's a thing that happens that I might think was cheap if someone else did it. But I like it, and I stand by it. It's a good book, and it's different from any zombie story I've ever read.

Do I not know who to sub it to? No. I have two houses in mind, neither of which have recently caused a web shit-storm by fucking authors over.

Why don't I just give it to my old publisher to publish? Good question. I want more money. I want more marketing support. I don't want to produce my own audiobooks anymore. I'm not really that good at it. I have a lot of wants my current guy isn't able to give me.

So why haven't I done it.
Seriously, I'm asking.
Because I don't fucking know what my problem is.
If somebody said to me what I'm saying now, I'd tell them to get the fuck over it already. There's nothing to lose by trying, and nothing great will happen to you while you sit around smoking reefer and watching TV.

In fact, the last time someone said "I don't want to send my manuscript out. What if they say no?" I was all "Well gee, you'd better not ask at all. Maybe they'll say yes if you don't actually ask..." because I'm sarcastic like that. Yet, I don't seem to want to take my own smartass advice even though I know it's GOOD advice.



On a completely unrelated topic, I really enjoyed hearing Theon Greyjoy's sister calling him the C-word last night. He IS the C-word. And no, I don't mean that he has cancer.