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wednes ([personal profile] wednes) wrote2006-01-26 10:20 pm

I want to switch off my emotions like Data from Next Gen.

Today has been a total and utter mindfucker.

Was not able to reach the lady at Comcast, plan to get up first thing tomorrow and call.
After making a few calls, it seems that People's Express will help me get one way to work or from work between 9am and 4:30pm.
That should make it so I can take the job if they offer it to me, which I shoudl know soon.

However.
If I take the job I'll have health insurance, which means I won't be eligible for my therapy program. It's only for people who don't have any insurance, and I'm wondering if I can just elect not to have it. That might be easier and less horrible than choosing a new doctor, and a new therapist, and having to forgo group. I know I bitch about group a lot, but I like the ladies there very much and I do get stuff from it.

My computer still isn't back, and so I'm really behind on my writing. I planned to catch up with my flist and my writing tonight.

But then I heard something that so thoroughly put me off my game that I couldn't do another thing but sit and cry for a little while.
You see, I used to work with this amazing woman at Blockbuster. She was one of those super-efficient hard working types. She was black and her hubby was white, so we used to joke about swapping (sorry K and N, you weren't first with that). She had this amazing, super smart son who had been skipped ahead several grades. After leaving Blockbuster, I didn't do a very good job of keeping in touch with many people. Some I did, but most I did not. So when I found out this horrible thing, it was made slightly more horrible by the fact that I didn't find out until over a year after it happened. Now that I recall, she'd had a family history of violence and was working hard to give her son a better life than she had. And she was; her son was awesome.

Cut for being utterly horrible. I'm serious, you might not even want to know.

I am so sad I think I'm going to cry for a bit and then go to bed.

And to think...90 mintues ago I was going to post how crazy sad Smallville was.

[identity profile] locakitty.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Oh god, i'm so sorry to hear about that. *hug*

As for insurance, you can opt to not have insurance with almost any company. Some companies even pay you the difference if you don't take it. (I've known of four that have done so, one was a small private firm, the rest were either governmental or large corporations).

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
I just wonder if that is somehow dishonest to eschew insurance in order to stay in a program for women without insurance. I'll have to ask them what they think. I don't want to do anything to set myself back, but I also don't want to leave the program yet. I figure I'm about six months or so from graduating it. At the same time, I imagine it will take at least 90 days for it to kick in, probably after I'm done with 3 weeks of training.

So I guess I can think about it some more.
Sorry for rambling.

[identity profile] nate101000.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
A lady I used to work with refused to insure her children through the company insurance so that she could get them MyChild. She said "Why should I pay for insurance when I can get it for free?" Because I worked with her I didn't tell her that I that she was stealing medical care from people who really need it.

But In you case it's a little different. First of all this program you are on costs you nothing out of pocket right now. And if you get regular insurance you will have to pay copays and deductibles on you medical care. You probably won't be in a good position to do that for a bit. I recommend staying on the state program for a year or so, and then switching during the next open enrollment.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-28 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
That's not a bad idea. It depends I guess, because if I'm making 13+ an hour I'd feel bad taking medical care away from someone who makes nothing. Not to mention that I'm certainly notin need of treatment as much as many others in the program.

I guess I just have to think about it some more; that is if I even get the damn job. I guess it will depend on the awesome power of forgiveness...and cranberry juice.

[identity profile] locakitty.livejournal.com 2006-01-28 07:59 am (UTC)(link)
Insurance is a pretty big deal. I would kill for some coverage right now. The 90 day thing is pretty standard, so you have at least those three months and then you can opt out and just get coverage at the next open enrollment. I used to do some HR stuff, so I may be able to help with any general questions you have.

I wouldn't sweat it too much. No sense in worrying about something that hasn't happened yet :)

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-28 08:37 am (UTC)(link)
All true. Many thanks!
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[personal profile] itches 2006-01-27 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
Well, that's uh ... shocking.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
It really was. I had been thinking about her recently too, because she always used to tell me how much she liked working under me. I was very complimented by that because she was so cool and such a good employee.

And she really was a great mom. But I recall her telling me that one of her parents shot the other one. And one of her siblings had assaulted someone; she was so set on not repeating that pattern. I just dont' get it. And that kid...I just wish I could have saved him.

Re: can't say much

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

[identity profile] cmdavi-70.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
Uggh. My condolences. Can't think of anything to say. So sorry.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
I'm in shock really. I just can't beleive it.

[identity profile] gifgal.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
oh no, that is so sad. my thoughts are with you and their family. its good to read you have such great memories of her though! :)

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 12:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. It's so unbeleivable, but yes, I do have some great memories of her. You know how that goes when you work with someone at a shitty job. Damn...it just sucks is all.

[identity profile] spiralwitch.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
i'm so sorry about your friend. it is heartbreaking. *holds your hand*

:(

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 01:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I appreciate that.

[identity profile] everythingtold.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 01:56 pm (UTC)(link)
*HUGS* That's awful

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, it really is.

I had nightmares all night that I was trying to save the kid.

[identity profile] uterdic.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I had nightmares all night that I was trying to save the kid

and the Locke punched you...

It's crazy about her, though. I totally remember her, and you're right, she was always very nice and on top of her game.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, it's really unbeleivable.

I literally woke myself up screaming "Run Jeremy run!" last night.
I'm just glad H wasn't here to hear it.

[identity profile] sudrin.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 05:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow.. that's terrible! I'm sorry to hear about that. :(

I wish I could agree with you about Smallville, but I can't. Somewhere along the way I have come to hate everything having to do with Lana.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Well yeah, beleive me this was not a pro-lana post. I meant that the other thing was sad. I was cheering when I thought it really was Lana who bought it.

Lana can bite me with her selective memory and wide eyed little girl thing. Whut evah!!

[identity profile] princezna.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I just read this news and I'm so sorry. I don't even know what to say. What a nighmarish thing to find out. I'm sorry for your friend. What must've been going through her mind that she saw no way out?

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2006-01-27 09:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I just can't fathom how she came to such a pass. Her son was so wonderful, and...man I just don't get it. I hope I can work through ti soon, because I'm already worn out from thinking about it.